I feel the radiance of joy through my whole being...

 

One of the greatest lessons that I am learning right now through the crossing of Ryan is that I no longer want to just sit by the wayside and watch things happen! If you follow Human Design you will understand this (and if you follow my work with Spirit - you will also understand this lol) but I am a Manifestor Generator.  I like to make things happen!  And to that, my Spirit Animal is a Badger, so I also have the issue of not getting everything to completion, but I digress!!

 

I have been doing a lot of thinking and trying to understand what has transpired over the last year and I am literally just going to say it loud and proud.  I don't get it.  I don't get it and I think that I have spent enough time trying to figure out what this Spiritual and Human lesson is and I'm done with that pity party.  I know that I've always said that I am going to move through this with as much grace for myself as possible and of course that is still my intention but I am here to literally say.  

 

F&*k IT!

 

Enough.  Enough trying to make others happy at your own sacrifice!  Enough trying to be what others want you to be or worse yet, expect you to be!  Enough with the whole self-reflection about why someone does something to hurt you and how somehow it is your fault.

 

Ugh!

Enough!

 

I don't want to wait for anything anymore.  You don't know what tomorrow will bring and I am now in full swing of, paying the money, getting things fixed, going on the trip, buying the clothes. Get the tattoo and if you have to explain to anyone why you are doing it, DON'T.

 

We don't actually owe anyone anything.  Yes, we take on responsibilities and we commit to doing certain things in our lives and we place ourselves in circumstances and situations because we are hopeful for a positive outcome and you should still do ALL of that.  But do it with the idea of, is this for my highest and best and am I going to get as much out of it as someone or something else.

 

Consciously, I have made the choice that not everyone is for my highest and best, and not everyone wants to see my success as much as I want to see theirs.  Okay.  Fair enough.  I am who I am and they are who they are.  Subconsciously I was trying to people please. 

 

But this past year has shown me that I actually, truly, love and embrace my Scorpio. The fact that if my mouth doesn't say it my face will.  I am not hiding anymore behind being a "Spiritual" individual.  I get to have my opinions, thoughts, and perspectives and they don't align with yours. I am actually okay with that now.  BYE Felicia!

 

Because in the end, I need to do what's right for me.  Be with the people that are right for me.  Create MY sacred space and only invite those people who feel the love I have to offer.  That wants to exchange thoughts and ideas and be open to discussion whether we are meant to journey together or not.

 

So whether you are a great business proposal or a great friend.  If you can't see me for me.  If you can't take me flaws and all.  If you can only see what you can USE of me.  It's okay to pass me by.  I am going down my own path and doing it my way.  

 

Because there is no other way to be the authentic me.

 

Stay Divine Friends!