Feeling is Healing

I did a course in December that focuses on different ways from a Spiritual perspective to heal one's self, mentally, emotionally and physically.  It was interesting because the premise of it was you had to be willingly to be healed.  

 

And I really thought what does that even mean?  To be healed?  I sat with this for a while, rolling my pencil around in my hand, sipping water.  What does it mean to heal...... 

 

I believe that it ultimately means something different for everyone.  We all have different obstacles, challenges and traumas that have occured in our lives and they affect each of us differently.  In my world I am dealing with an insurmountable amount of grief.  Grieving.  Loss.  But am I actually?  Yes.  Yes, I am.  And so are many people around me directly connected to my world.  

 

There are days that feel heavier emotionally then others and days where sadness seems to be the theme but there are also days that feel lighter, where laughter abounds and my mind is a little less clouded, the veil lifted.

 

So while I toyed with the word willingly, I did come to the conclusion that we have to be willing to be better or to feel better.  We have to want it bad enough that we will work at making it happen.  It appears as though it is easier for us to sit in discomfort and dis ease than it is to sit in happiness and joy and better yet, let's nasil it right down the middle and just feel content in being ok. 

Because honestly, isn't being ok enough?  I think it is.  The saying "it's ok to not be ok" is valid and true and for most of us that is the starting place to work on our healing journey whatever that is.  Past issues, current traumas or future fears are something that we can actually have control over in terms of how we perceive them and how we emotionally regulate ourselves.

 

It's not always easy but being willing to validate our emotions exactly as they are in the moment is the start to changing our perceptions and moving from a negative base to a more positive base and keep in mind that there is likely an in between place where we teeter between being okay and not being okay and I personally spend a lot of time their right now and I call it the "I'm coping" space.

 

But I'm willing to bring change to my perception of how I am feeling and I understand that I have to be willing to work with the positive just as much as I do with the negative even though the negative is easier to sit in.  I am willing to reflect when things are not feeling good and take a moment to validate what I'm feeling and then see if I can make that switch.  I'm also willing to accept that this is a long healing journey.  My mindset needs to be what Spirit has always shown me.  That mental and emotional detoxification isn't just about thinking positive but it's about what you have learned from working through the emotions.  A realization that I have the tools available to me both in my human state and my higher self being to aid me on my journey IF I am WILLING to do so.

 

And here is the jist of this post.  I need to be able to feel without guilt.  Without judgement.  I need to be able to assess and accept what I am feeling as ok.  Nothing more and nothing less.  And finally I want to acknowledge that when I am ready to shift and change what I'm feeling I will because I have the tools.  It might be right now or it might be tomorrow or even a year from now, but I am capable and I can do it.  

 

And I'm not afraid to ask for guidance or help.  From whomever.  I'm not afraid of others' judgement.  They wil either help or they won't.  They will judge or they won't.  And that's a them thing, not a me thing.  Period.

 

So if you are on a healing journey, no matter what you are feeling from, be willing to do the work.  It may take time.  It may be hard.  Or. It may not.  But you won't know unless you do it.

Wishing you all a joyous New Year filled with all the abundance of whatever it is you need at this time.