Personal Responsibility.

I am a Scorpio.  Through and through.  I am hard-headed and stubborn and like control lol. 

I also want people to please not from a sense of wanting people to like me or even admire me, but because I like to see things as progressive.  Moving towards abundance in everything and anything.  Positive movement forward.  Always.

 

And so being a Scorpio I am used to making myself of service.  I thrive on helping others see their best potential.  Even if it is a repetitive act of service.  I continue to do it until results are had OR I recognize that I am not the one to help them see the results.  

 

What I am not used to is needing others, although people come and offer assistance all the time (especially in the last few months), I struggle with accepting anyone's assistance.  I don't like to ask for help and I really don't like to ask for help from those that I don't know well.  I know why that is as well.  It is because I don't want to be a burden.  My human self does NOT like the idea of relying on anyone because that feels like I'm not in control and that is a very uncomfortable place for me to be.  Very. Uncomfortable.  

 

As someone working through their most human emotions right now, I am recognizing that it is safe for me to be carried for a little while.  Not long because that isn't natural to me and that uncomfortable feeling will intrude, but long enough for the healing to really start its work.  

 

It is safe for me both in my human self and my higher self to be supported by those that love and care about me.  That this love and support will come in many different ways and I am safe to let these people know if it's too much or even if it is too little.  It isn't about me being in control but instead relinquishing the idea that my control is the only thing that will heal me.  

 

My Spirit reminds me that I am confident in who I am and it is natural to question my confidence when it is shaken, but it is still there.  My confidence.  It's just trying not to succumb to an irresistible urge to be pulled down a path that is unrecognizable to me.

 

And after much contemplation I realize and accept that all the help I am receiving is a magickal gift.  And I am worthy of receiving it.