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Being Self-Aware Apr 01, 2025

Many of you are following my very human journey through the grieving of Ryan, the preparation of the trial, and so on.  There are a lot of emotions that come along with this roller coaster of a journey and with that is the growing need to be more and more aware of my own space and my own needs.

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Inner Reflection Jan 29, 2025
January has been a month!  I don't know about you all but it was a month of reflection for me that I was not looking for but I've welcomed with open arms!  For me personally, Winter Solstice is a time for deeper reflection - of the past, the present, and the future.  It is a time when I TAKE the tim...
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Well here we are.... Jun 01, 2024
Well here we are.  June 2023 my life, my family's lives, and many friends etc. lives changed.  And not for the better.  But I do not want to sit in sadness as I write this.  The sadness will always be there but I am choosing to write a short and sweet piece. 
 
Do all the things.
Love with abando...
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Loyalty Out Values Everything Apr 26, 2024
As time creeps closer to Ryan's 1 year of being taken away, I find that my heart hurts more often, and that my eyes fill with tears more easily.  I don't know how to be better or even do better.  I don't think it will literally matter one bit when they get arrested and I know that they will.  I feel...
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Healing is Not Just a Moment but a Journey. Mar 29, 2024
I was thinking the other day about what Healing really means.  In the Spiritual Community, we are always talking about healing and how to incorporate it into our lives.  For some, it is so much easier than for others.  And there is so much that we need to take into consideration about individual hea...
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New Year - New Thoughts Dec 31, 2023
I need this year to end.  I really do.  I am done with the thoughts that repeat over and over and although I know they won't go away and I am still processing, I really feel that if I look upon 2024 as NEW, I can cultivate new energy moving forward regarding not only Ryan and what has happened but i...
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The days are passing quickly Oct 29, 2023
The days are passing quickly and I can't tell if that is a good thing or not.  I find that I am trying to get through all these so-called "firsts" with Ryan being gone.  Thanksgiving, his birthday, and Christmas.  I feel like I need to get through these and then....what?  Does it just become easier?...
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We all do it differently. Aug 31, 2023
It is without a shadow of a doubt that I have discovered just how powerful words can be.  How a simple word can bring tears.  A sentence can fill you with hope.  It's odd that as a Spiritual Being, as someone who teaches the importance of the words that we use, I cannot find words to explain the emo...
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Do NOT Take Anything For Granted. Jul 31, 2023
This is a blog that will be short and to the point.  Some of you may not be aware but on June 29th our family lost one of the most precious gifts that we have ever received.  Our son Ryan was taken away from us so suddenly and has left an emptiness that I cannot put into words.  Tears yes, words no....
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